That's All I Really Want

You called me out. You reached down and grabbed my hand while I was swatting around in the dark for You. I thought I'd forever be swatting with only a sense of Your presence. And now, holding Your holy hand, I'm beginning to see a glimpse of light. My greatest desire is to know You Father. Please let all of Your glorious light shine for me. For me! I've come. Father God, I am ready to get out of the boat like Jesus told Peter to do. I'm ready to get out of the boat and walk on the water toward You Jesus. Help me not to falter and if I do, pick me up and allow me to share that precious moment of intimacy with You.

That's all I really want, is to be intimate with my Savior, to be in love with my King, to share my life with one person, Jesus, my Best Friend. I want to be aware of God's presence in my life and in tune with the Holy Spirit. I want to know God's Word and to soak everything out of it. I want to live it out and become a walking example of Christ's love. I want to be more like You Jesus. I want to know You, know You like You already know me. I want to be completely transformed, renewed by Your grace. I want to understand Your grace so it is not longer just something that is spoken of, but something beautiful that I daily bathe in. Wash me in Your grace and overhwhelm me in Your love. Pour into me not only knowledge and wisdom, but more so that anything Jesus, Yourself.

Jesus, I long to only breathe you in. I'm finished trying to impress the world. Fill me with You and shine out of me for the world to see! I want to be Your servant!

It is my most desperate longing to love You, know You, feel You, experience You, see You, hear You, touch You, in a way that is so real, so explosive, so transforming, so renovative, so renewing, so mindblowing, so out of this world, so unbelievable, so awesome, so powerful, so holy, so inexpressible, so indescribable, so breathtaking that I am never the same, that I can't stop thinking about You day and night, that I can't help but share You, Your love, with everyone I pass, that I can't help but be moved to tears when I even think about an encounter with You, that I can walk through any trial, any tribulation, and have You in my focus, that I may see Your light in any valley and shout Your praise from every mountain top, that I may know You are God, the Alpha and Omega, the Prince of Peace, the Lord of Lords, the King of Kings, my Savior, my Rock, my Shield, my Comforter, the Creator of the universe, my Abba Daddy, the great I AM.

I desperately long to dive into Your word. I want to print the Scriptures on my heart. The more I know Your word Father, the more I know You. And the more I know Your word, the more I have to share, the more I have to combat temptation with.

I don't just want to memorize your word, I want to live it. I want to eat it, drink it, breathe it. I am so hungry for what you have to say, eager to digest and live by it. I am at a crucial point in my life Father and I don't want to make any decisions without You. Help me to see Your purpose for my life. Reveal to me where I should go, what I should do. Father God, You have a plan and I simply long to follow it. Give me some holy direction! Help me to find You this year, help me to daily know more of You and to every moment, with every breathe, fall deeper in love with You, my Jesus. I want to spend every moment with You Jesus. You should see the view when it's only You. And Jesus, help me to find myself in You. I don't long to find myself, but rather You. For I long to be one with You Jesus. Come and fill me. Make me like You, help me to reach out and share the good news with everyone -- to those ordinary shepherds who just like me are waiting for the invitation to come see You in the manger.

I pray this all in the awesome and holy name of Jesus, amen.